This morning I woke up feeling not so great about where I am at with my gifts. The problem is my patience. I want perfection and mastery now. I want things that come easy, just like most people. I want to have all the answers and understand everything all at once. The fact of the matter is that is just not what our 3D reality is about. Things take time. We learn by doing, by practice, by failing and rising again to try it a different way.
Failure has never been easy for me. Admitting it, learning from it, or even trying new things because of a fear of failure. Effort was not rewarded in my family, nor admitting our mistakes. Pride was king, the ego the master.
On my spiritual journey I been discovering how much I limit myself by the perceptions I have created about what it means to be successful, by listening to my ego. This morning my ego got the best of me. I was feeling frustrated, and ultimately impatient. As I logged onto my computer and turned on my Pandora this morning the first song that greeted me, Don’t Stop Believing by Journey. Was this serendipitous or a message from the universe? I’m sure you know what I think!
It’s amazing the peace that comes with trusting yourself and source. I always thought that I couldn’t trust myself if I didn’t get all the answers right, if I didn’t make all the best decisions. The truth is that we are meant to learn. I can trust that if I made a bad decision, it is because I had something to learn about how I perceive the world, or a situation. I might perceive something in a way that my intuition did not mean for me to receive it. The ego often gets in the way and interprets the information for us. The interpretation that comes form ego screams the response. It demands to be noticed.
I’ve learned that my intuition is subtle, gentle, kind, and loving. It never shouts, compares, judges, or puts you down. I like to think of them as two people sitting on my shoulders. One perceives everything through pure love and the other through a lense of the past, through fears, and limiting beliefs. If we can be honest with ourselves and with others love and light prevails. Sometimes this means we don’t get the job we thought we wanted, or the relationship that we had our heart set on.
Be honest to who you are at your core. Love yourself, accept even the dark things that you don’t share with others, and you will find all the happiness and abundance you could imagine.