Month: December 2022

Peace or Apathy

The holidays used to be a very busy time for me. I won’t go into the details here, because it’s a long story, but my life 10 years ago was full of traditions and people to spend my holidays with. Indeed life in general was full of distractions and tasks to get done. Little people to keep alive and happy, a husband, a household, and a job.

There was not a lot of me time to be had, but in the last 10 years people and things have slowly been leaving my life. At first this was anxiety inducing. I defined myself by all these things and my title as mother, wife, daughter, etc. When they slowly started fading away, I didn’t know who I was, and this was really hard for me.

I tried to fill up the space with social media, dating, projects etc. I felt bored, and alone. Nothing seemed to fulfill me.

Then, I started this spiritual journey, and began to discover the truth. Things and people were being removed from my life so that I could discover myself. I had prayed to discover a deep understanding of who I was, and I realize now that God gave me the tools and the space to do that. I am so very grateful.

I know that I still have a lot more to learn about myself, but I also know that I have the power to manifest what I truly desire. I wanted to know myself, and I am getting there. It took me a while to understand exactly what was happening and why, but now that I do, I am so grateful. The inner peace that I feel is amazing. I am even almost completely off the anxiety meds that I have been on for 20 years.

Some days I mistake this peace with apathy. It takes awhile for your subconscious to get on board, but I am being patient with it these days.

Just remember, when you ask God/Universe for big changes in your life, and then world as you know if starts to crumble, that the old will need to be removed for the new to have space. God will take the straightest route. Your intuition will be your GPS.

Let it Be vs Let it Go

Let it be = Acceptance

Let it go = Choice

How can two letters change the way I view things so much?

When someone tells you to let something go, it requires a choice. It also infers that you are holding onto something that isn’t for you. There’s fault in this statement. I have seen value in something that doesn’t have value and for someone that has unhealed traumas might trigger guilt and shame.

When someone tells you to let something be, it requires a whole new process. It’s not really a choice, but an evaluation of what it is to you, and how it fits into to your life. It’s acceptance of what is, and if it’s in alignment with you. By accepting what it is, you remove the control and allow yourself and whatever it is to be what it is. This removes the shame and guilt, for the need to find fault in it.

This also allows you to be in acceptance of yourself. Here’s where I am, I might be somewhere different tomorrow, but this is who I am right now, and that is okay. We all grow and change our whole lives, and what we are in vibration with today, might not be what aligns tomorrow. If we accept and let it be what it is and your relationship to it, then there is room for growth.

I have to admit it was hard for communicate this in words as I felt it so strongly in my heart during my meditation this morning. I hope I did it justice.